The pretty busy life , now and ahead till the end of next year

Yea, sorry for no updates in a LLLOOOONNNNGGG time. 

SPM results , 5A's 5B's. no questions pl0x.

Anyways, landed in Form 6, and guess I'm gonna finish another chapter of school in my life. And yes, i admit it, It's damn hard. Like seriously hard.Even though we study some theories and actually understand it, it's more to application when we answer questions. And the questions are DEFINITELY not like the ones in textbooks. 

Getting less time for myself as well. It's more to time management, so I've gotta grasp the skills in order to succeed. And yea, FINALLY got my license for around 2 weeks already, so have been driving to school ever since. :D Scary, but getting used to it, and yea, i can get lost sometimes == sooo bad with roads.... till next time then :D

So long no post :O

Owhkay, just heads up on what happen like few months ago after NS...... come back, spend few weeks getting used to my new life now, and then have been busy preparing for ER? Amazingly, this year, everything has been going FAST, it's like a big wind just went pass me and it's already April... Oh My Gosh... and i don't have any full scholarships so I plan to do form 6 for now :X yea, alot of people was like, wth but i don't give a damn cos tho my results were ok, i still dunno what i wanna study or even if i know it, i don't even have the fund for it. So yea, that's all I guess. Will promise a detailed heads up soon :P

Grrrr.....sooo boredd!!!

Hey peeps.... it's after SPM bio paper, yea, so i was looking forward to a fun-filled day, but crap, i haven't got my license yet..... woke up at 9, FB and maple abit, then i was like, to hell with this cos it's after SPM and I'm still stuck with a FRIGGIN ANCIENT LAPTOP!! and yea, im still using broadband, so sue me people, I CANT EVEN DOWNLOAD THINGS......

So for that i can't really maple and all, LAG MAKES ME LOSE MY EXPERIENCE PERCENTAGE BY 10 O.o.... haizzz, not to even say bossing..... crap my life, i want some things to be better, hate being the middle child ==

Can't shake this feeling.......

Yea, the feeling...... most of us felt it before, but it just sucks. The feeling of being alone and just.... being alone, like for that moment, no one actually even care whether u exist or not. It's pitiful, and I can't stop feeling it. It's just there, it's hard, it's cold, whatever it is. It's like what I'm doing NOW, blogging to this empty wall, and knowingly well that no one is reading it... 


Yea this is a rant post.... Just had a hard time from Physics exam.... Looking forward for I still cling on the hope that the best is always yet to come...


Ciao~

SPM? 15 Days from now....

Yo peeps, 15 more days till my SPM ends. Suprisingly, it's just like a normal exam, only that because of it's importance , we who are sitting for it limit ourself to a certain degree so that we keep the seriousness in momentum..... haha, well, i guess i've lost mine, and so does some other people..... If i get straight A's,which is practically impossible now, I would do anything crazy just to get it. Obviously, i won't get it cause Sejarah is my doomed subject, includes Moral which i didn't really studied (but the paper was quite easy so praying hard for it >.< ) and of course, there's Add Maths and 2 science subject, Bio and Physics..... more worried bout Bio actually..... Chemistry is soo far my strongest subject so i don't have problems there :X, well, whatever it is, prayhard for good results >.< , keep us in your humble prayers :D

24 more days, and im still blur in my studies!!!

Yea, the countdown is WWWAAAAYYYY TOO NEAR! like seriously, time really pass so fast, i remember i try to calculate the days left and that time, it was 45 days, it felt just like yesterday.....

Neways, here's my updates of my long months of absence :X

- Practically, i only love 2 subjects in my studies..... Maths and chemistry, the rest i dun really care

- Selected for NS, shud be in first badge but i can't comfirm it yet.... even i try to find it online but the thing has also not been comfirm yet by the government ==

- Feel like I'm falling behind almost all of my friends who had got their driving license or future planned.... i still dunno what to do with my life.... like seriously... i'm not satisfied with EVERYTHING.....

- Because of no.3 in the list, i have some issues with my parents.... trying to concentrate on studies just makes it harder....

- failed my sejarah for my mock exam ==, i gt 39, but teacher passed me with a mere 1 mark... oh wells.... at least its a pass == , am doing sejarah revision as priority....

- I have lost my motivation in studies .... practically due to my seniors because they keep on saying it's easy and stuff.... i dun really blame them, but they should know that they went through that stage and i have not....

- And of course, i'm still worried bout SPM.... like seriously, i wanna get straight A's to get some good scholarships, parent's money i dun think will be enough, still need to fund my sis and my bro.....

- I still have to settle the finance of my school's YCS..... some of the sum of money was actually used but i dunno what it is, trying to recall with Damien but yea, i think we kinda over budget for AGM :x ... lol....

yeap, thats practically what i have stuck in my mind sooo far. And yea, i think this year's birthday was great because i manage to cover it up? :P, yea, few people know about it, but i just want to keep a low profile so that no one makes any fuss and stuff to buy presents :X (but deep down in my heart, i want some things for myself :P, haha) And i think there is no escape next year cos Adrian save it in his phone :X, thats unless i went overseas to study xD....

That's all i have to say, wish me and te rest of the Form 5 luck for SPM, yea, i dun think I'll be on9 till then, i even deactivate my FB account too! :X this is the time to focus on studies!

Ciao~

Sinners yet forgiven

Yes... lets face it.... WE ALL SIN .... not trying to condemn us or anything but its human to sin. The reason why this post came up to me was what I did randomly always.... flipping through the bible hoping God would speak to me through the page where i will stop. (Lol) yea.... soo i almost did it until i saw a poem i copy in a piece of paper in the bible. The poem was copied from one of the pictures in St. Lucas Centre, lols. It goes like this

When things go wrong,as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging, seems all uphill.
When the funds are low, and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but have to sigh.

When care is pressing, you down abit,
If you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer, with its twist and turns,
As everyone of us, sometimes learn.
And many a failure, turn about,
When he(Jesus) might have won have he stuck it out?

Don't give up, though the pace seems slow
You may succeed, with another blow

Success is failure, turn inside out,
The silver tint, of the clouds of doubt.
And you never can tell, how close you are,
It may be near, when it seems so far.

So stick in the fight, when you're hardest hit,
It is when things seems worse, you must not quit.

Don't quit! (forgetting what lies behind and reaching foward to what lies ahead) Phil 3:13

Yes, its long but meaningful. I was curious what this poem is about. I thought its only life in general, but specifically what?? So i looked into Phil 3:13. It was St.Paul's message to the Phillipians, saying "Of course my friends, I really do not think I have already won it; the one thing i do, however is to forget what is behind me and do my best to reach what is ahead"

Then, i flip to the book of the first letter to Timothy. I read BLINDLY then my eyes were caught on the verse 1 Tim 1:12-16. It speaks of Paul's conversion to Chriastianity. Now for those who don't know Paul, he was a Pharisee and prosecuted the Catholics in the beginning after Christ's ascension into heaven when the gospel was preach. He also stoned one of the faithful disciple to death. Altho he did alot of bad stuff, in the end it was he who contributed the most in preaching the Gospel worldwide!

So from his story, we can conclude one thing. Everyone is a sinner, even a Saint! Then we should learn from his story. to forget what wrong we do in the past, no matter how bad. Lying, stealing, everything will be of the past, provided that only you repent and make an effort to stop sinning. Paul doesn't just stop by just believing in Jesus, he became one of his faithful apostle and went to the extend to go againts the pharisees and spread the gospel. So we should repent, confessing our sins through the sacrament of confession is not enough. This include prayer and time of course. This isn't just a one day thing.... It might be longer than 20 years to just stop yourself from doing one sin! But always believe in God's promise of prayer that He will help you to stop sinning. Keep on praying and keep on trying. NEVER GIVE UP! Do not give up on the hope that Jesus death on the cross means that sin will not overpower our lives! Which brings us backs to the poem itself :).

I would like to end with this.
Fr.John Corapi shared this message:
Everyone has a bad habit, it might be pornography, sexual harrasments , stealing, one-night stand. I don't care who you are you have a weakness. Everyone has one~