The Lost of Words

Sometimes, words doesn't matter any more, don't mean a thing, it's do it or don't say it. The meaning has crept into our generation, where we urge for something more to fill the void in our hearts.

I remembered last year before my foster brother left for studies here in Inti, we were close. Hang out a lot, talked a lot, basically doing almost everything that I could think of. Once he left, I concentrated on my studies while he did the same in his. We make it a point to continue to communicate, by text message, WhatsApp, even calls like almost everyday. Then it slowly die down, until there's totally no conversation at all, as if words has lost it's power. Where all texts and calls always end with "I'm busy" or "Studying now" or even the worse "no reply" at all. Even voice lost it's power, where a normal phone call could last for hours is cut down to 3 - 5 minutes just because "I'm tired" or "I'm busy".

We know that communication is important, thus words become an honest way to communicate to each other, to know how the other person is feeling, to explain something, or to tell a joke. Ultimately this comes down to bonding, and the sound of a person can be a form of physical presence of themselves. But it also seems that the real physical presence is in need in the equation.

From my experience above, after losing my friend in Form 2 due to leukemia, I find it hard to bond. He was the closest friend I've come to over those years, to the extent of making him my foster brother but it hit me hard because the change is soo dramatic. From the experience I learn to let go, accept changes, and moved on. It's only fair. And it's also a learning experience to go through what he did when I started college. The funny thing is, I know deep down inside, things would never be the same.

It saddens me on how people take communication between one another for granted. Having the chance to go out for drinks together, just chilling with someone you cherished in life, is already a big reward for me. The time you spent on a person is the greatest gift, for you can never get it back, but only to be cherished as memories.

But it has come to the point of words mean nothing any more. Where the questions asked are always "How are you?" and you want to answer honestly but can't because you fear they don't understand your situation. It has crept to everyone and almost everyone are ignorant about it.

If one of the closest person in your life whom you recently or in a very long time have not talk to each other and in honest situation, would you regret it if life suddenly seeps out from them, and you never have the chance to tell them how you fell about them??

I know I have been through it.

Of Assignments, Exams and Holidays (Pending)

Hey guys. Just a much needed update since it's coming to the last week of November (Advent started) and here am I going to rant about my CRAZY schedule in this coming month's time. And so I shall start with this.

ASSIGNMENTS

It's coming to the end of my first semester. It's suppose to be a "Hurray!!" moment for me but it does not seem quite like it because assignments are piling up and I don't know whether I can reach the intended criteria to pass it especially for the "Creative Media" (CM for short) courses which I didn't know I was going to take when I come here. Although it's fun to learn new things, but to expect a miracle work from something new, it takes time for me to perform something, and a miracle is really out of my reach. For short, I have 5 CM course this semester, and two of them have written revision and ALL of them have assignments. So far I had finished with two subject's assignments (2D Illustration (drawing in black and white and also in colour), and also Visual Communication (poster design and painting a shoe) ) That makes it four assignments already.

And the list below are currently the assignments that I'm going to finish before Christmas according to their subjects:-

Digital Imaging (Photoshop)
1. Create a Vector Car Design poster for an exhibition
2. 4 photos taken by using a DSLR with its theme (motion, street, graveyard, and indoor portrait using studio lightings)

Digital Graphics (Illustrator)
1. Create a logo for an organization/awareness/campaign etc.
2. Establish the organization/awareness/campaign by creating designs for it's promotional items, letterhead, envelope, business card.

Studio Studies (pretty easy but damn expensive)
1. Solder cables of different varieties mainly XLR (mic) cables, TS/TRS (jack cables both mono and stereo), RCA cables etc and buying the materials can easily cost up to rm200++

Typography
Not very sure about this but I think it's about designing the letters of a word to describe the word using the letters in it.



Exams
It's actually sad seeing people posting about when they are going back and it's earlier than you and also your exam ends 2 days before Christmas and you have to be like "I don't wanna get excited because I have exams" but you can't help it? Well, I'm there right now, and I can't concentrate... oh help me get through this ==.

Lastly, one thing I'm grateful of,
is my upcoming holiday, which lasted until 27th January, but I'm extending it to after CNY because it falls on the 31st so might as well... HAHA!! Long Holidays people!!

So yea, kinda in a pinch because my procrastinating mood is getting heavier with the holidays coming around... so it sucks!! Should really consider deactivating FB for awhile to concentrate... hmmm...

well then, till the next update! Cheers!

The Question of LGBT in the Catholic Church

Disclaimer : This post does not mean in anyway to offend any party and to just be clear with the society of what is MY general view as a Catholic on the topic of LGBT.

So I come upon this page ( http://www.tfpstudentaction.org/what-we-do/news-and-updates/i-saw-the-smoke-of-satan-at-georgetown-on-coming-out-day.html?utm_source=sm-tfpsa&utm_medium=email&utm_content=SAE0219&utm_campaign=tfpsa_newsletter ) where in Georgetown University (US) on the Coming Out day, they have the LGBT community doing their awareness. Mind you, GU is an old Catholic University and like in the page it says "one would thought that Catholic doctrine and tradition are upheld there".

Read the post first before continuing.

Done? Ok. Now for my opinion in the matter.

The Cathetism of The Catholic Church says that "homosexual activity" is a sin. Which in any way, I'm not saying that it is wrong because the purpose for sex is sexual intimacy and to reproduce. Without one of it even, it is already considered wrong unless you can't have children due to some health related issues.

But do know this, The Church however DOES NOT CONDEMN the LGBT community, because they are Children of God as well, made in His image and liking. Who are you to condemn them when you're not the one who created them? However, the Church condemns THE SEXUAL ACTIVITIES that involves around them.

From the post above, I'm actually quite ashamed of how some of the questions were asked because the interviewer got his feelings mixed into the interview. But also not for the wrong reasons because he thinks based on the Church's point of view, but his actions however, I have no comment on that.

I have been journeying with a few people who are going through this problems in their life. Think about being in their shoes for a second... You were raised/born a Catholic, and you struggle with your sexuality because of past experiences or health disorder. It scarred you and made you who you are today. And being a person with confused sexuality is wrong according to people who don't really know how it feels like or didn't really fully understand the Church's point of view.

Shame on you who despise them just for being who they are. Whatever happened to Jesus' commandment : Love thy neighbour ?

And for those who are Catholics/Christians who are struggling with their sexuality, I PRAY AND HOPE that you do not involve yourself in "homosexual activities". Understand it fully what homosexual activities are. It is to have physical intimacy with another person of the same gender. Fight the temptation, drown yourself in prayers, celebate yourself, have an accountability partner and tell them what's wrong, constantly seek advice from your spiritual directors/priests. The road to trod WILL be hard, and that will be your cross to carry. You'll be called to a single life for God, to stay chaste and pure for Him.

Homosexuality is a disorder. 1 percent of it is due to health disorders like low hormone levels and born with two sexual organs. The rest, they are struggling with it mentally, some are scarred for life, having their image of the opposite gender soo disfigured and never to find sexual attraction in them.

To all Christians/Catholics out there, I pray that you will help those who are going through with this in their life, and bringing them closer to God by ACCEPTING them for who they are, and journeying with them, giving your continuous support and love.

To those who are confused with their sexuality, continue to seek God. You'll find peace and rest with Him. Do not bother those who are againts you. But also don't get involve in any "physical activity" (you know what I mean) because it'll be harder for you to come back.

That's all for my point of you. I do not mean to offend anyone. It's just one of those random things that I feel I need to speak out about.